Meroyan pada 7 August 2017

Hi blog,

Ari nie ader masa utk masuk blog. Tadi baru abes buat personal Trainer (PT) dgn mendera kan diri utk activity kebaikan diri sendiri buat ianyer menyakitkan tahu... but its really help me to reduce me to over thing of my problem that i hate to think cos i normally crazy about my job & passion with my rutin job now is end of my job then still looking forward to find a job with fix income not the job that lost of income.

Just now when i want to leave my home my mum is asking why I'm not stop the gym activity my blood already go up stair and i tell her let me control my financial problem as long i dont request the money from you. You should be thank full to Allah cos i didnt asking your money to pay all my debt that I'm facing now.

I tell my mother my life before this all is work that i have fix income to handle my financial. Dont you think my brain have enough problem to facing my life with out a job. Dont asking me the question make me feel burning myself with that kind of question.

I pay for the job street to give pority to get the job even i surf the internat everday at job street/Indeed/mahu kerja/moster job etc

What is happen to me without the job is not my choice to left the company with no fix income.

When this is happen info my life i really curse the setan celaka lagi durjana laknatullah.. my meroyan at my FB is my personal and he is INTENTIONALLY find my mistake to get me lost my job even my defferd bonus gone. How do u feel that i work like crazy be to excellent at my job.

Mmmmm before I be come crazy and more mistake better for me get out of that kind of human being in my life..

I belive Allah SWT still with me and wating the miracle happen to me. The job is come from Allah SWT, i already apply a lot but there is not respon from the employeer.

In the Quran always said "Allah SWT with the patient person" now i still in pateint & calm inside my heart but my brain already sometime think beyond the world. Some time i really hate my brain cos its keep me Pushing to think & react nonsense & sometime my Head like want to explode.

I always pray to Allah SWT give me to stay calm inside my brain, heart, soul inside me.

Berfore this i cant sleep or rest becos my work. Now day i cant sleep cos i praying to Allah SWT to give me job with the fix income that i can continue to maintane my on expensess for living in this world.

Okie blog i think i enough for me to meroyan at this time. Now 2,47pm i will take bath n go for solat zohor.

Dear Allah SWT please help me to find a job with the thing i good at with the better income that i have more then before and the benefit is also better then before. I really wanted the job is near at KLCC cos i really like this place